Sometimes I even feel a vague sense of dread, like waiting for the other shoe to drop. I feel like I'm coming to terms with my own aging, and the fact that some of the ones I love are aging and won't be around much longer.
I had a happy childhood and young adulthood and no idea how precious that time was. Summer nights where the adults hung out and drank a bit and the kids (me, friends, cousins) ran around playing on our own, carefree.
#Homesick for places that are no longer home movie#
I often have nostalgia over childhood memories - sometimes I long for family movie nights with popcorn, drug store runs to try new makeup with my mom, going out for pizza with my dad in college. But I can see that it is in the foreseeable future, which breaks my heart. I have two small children who adore them and I absolutely dread the day my parents are no longer with us - for myself and for my kids. My mom is starting to struggle with every day tasks like driving, and gets flustered and overtired easily. His hearing is severely limited now and he hates to use hearing aids. My dad has a major health issue that he will have for the rest of his life, and it's really the first time he's had a major health problem - it's a big change seeing him more vulnerable. I'm in my 30s, my parents are in their 70s, and I very often feel the same way. I guess this is mostly a vent and I'm curious if others have felt/feel similarly, and how you deal with these thoughts. But it doesn't stop me from feeling.sad? Homesick? Lonely, in a weird way? Don't get me wrong, my husband is incredible and provides a new kind of safety and security for me. I remind myself how fortunate I am to have had such a wonderful childhood and incredible parents. (Also, I have a brother who has his own set of problems, suffering from debilitating anxiety and depression his whole life, but my parents always made sure that never became my problem and bear the brunt of that one). I think it's partly because they know I don't "need" them anymore, and because they have their own health related issues that consume them. But nowadays, I'm more often taking care of them, especially with my dad's illness and my mom's diminishing memory. When I go to spend time with my parents I'm always craving that feeling of security, happiness and safety that came with having a great home and two loving parents. But I often feel "homesick" for my childhood, if that makes sense? I've experienced this a bit over the last two or so years, but most especially during the holidays. My mom seems to be exhibiting early signs of memory loss and slowing down, and my dad is sick. They're both older now (late 70s - they had me later in life). I love my parents and have always had a great relationship with them both. I'm mid-30s, happily married, no kids (yet). Do not try to play Rules Lawyer with the moderation team. The AWO30 moderation team reserves the discretion to remove posts and ban users that do not contribute positively to the community. You must request permission from the moderators in order to post academic surveys. If you wish to post an academic survey, it must have institutional/faculty sponsorship and IRB/ethics board approval. We do not permit marketing research nor surveys for commercial purposes. No spam/self-promotion – This is not the right place to advertise your blog or YouTube channel.No rate me posts/comments – This includes "Would you date someone who ?" type posts.No misogyny/misandry – This includes and is not limited to broadly bashing men and women, transphobia, homophobia, and using dog-whistles from known sexist groups like the Red Pill, pick-up artists and dating-strategists.This includes, but is not limited to, xenophobia, bigotry against religious affiliation or disaffiliation, ableism, marital status, reproductive history, etc. No bigotry/TRASH – TRASH (Transphobia, Racism, Antisemitism, Sexism, or Homophobia) and any other forms of bigotry are prohibited in this subreddit.Arguing is fine, but start getting personal and you're outta here. No abusing other members – Abusing other community members is a banning offense.No relationship posts where everyone involved aren't 30+.No cougar posts/comments – This includes "Would you date an -year-old?" or "How do I attract older women?" posts.Check out this post for more on our moderation "policy".
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